What is it

What it is/ Living with every consequence/ Bar none/ Old habits do fade away/ The devil pants/ While the angel sing mary holidays/ Not wiping the sweat off my bare forehead/ Rather lavishing my face/ What is it/ That made me weak/ stand firm in the presence of defeat/ What is it/ Yes I am a Taurus/ But I identify steel metal to concrete/ More so a reflex than a premeditated thought/ What is it/ Is "it" what Im suppose to believe in/ I am done wanting to make sense of everything/ What is it/ God guiding my hand/ Thank you/ William K. Butler